I don’t know , but i want to share this, because what you described… for years it was a luxury I didn’t have. From the moment I opened my eyes, I was expected to be someone for someone else. To play a role. To show up. If I ever claimed my own thirty minutes, I was told it meant I was selfish, thinking only of myself.
So I never learned that ritual early on. I never had that space to just sit with my thoughts. And even when I finally fought for it, it still felt like a luxury. To simply sit. To hear the noise in my mind and not apologize for it.
But with time, you learn. You learn to guide your thoughts. You learn to carry the chaos without letting it carry you. And eventually, you learn to bring all of it to Allah with a quieter heart.
Having those minutes isn’t small. It isn’t trivial. It’s a blessing I’m only now learning how to hold.
Thank you for sharing this. Your comment has been lingering with me for a while, and I didn't know what was more important to respond with, nor do I want it to be "thank you".
You're right that it's not small or trivial. Those minutes are where you remain yourself. Where you don't perform, don't execute, don't play the role. And the fact that you had to fight for that space, that you're learning to hold it now, that's not late. That's exactly when it needed to happen for you, for me, for anyone. I truly believe in that..
What you described, being told that claiming thirty minutes for yourself meant you were selfish, that's not just about missing a morning routine. That's about being taught that your internal life doesn't deserve space. That's the noise in your head, the conversations you need to have with yourself, the screaming meemies, the shuffling through everything competing for attention, all of that should happen while you're being someone for someone else. I can relate to that. I know exactly where this is coming from, even if the story is different.
I'm glad you found it. And I'm glad it brought you to where those minutes become a conversation with Allah. That's the centre of it all anyway.
I don’t know , but i want to share this, because what you described… for years it was a luxury I didn’t have. From the moment I opened my eyes, I was expected to be someone for someone else. To play a role. To show up. If I ever claimed my own thirty minutes, I was told it meant I was selfish, thinking only of myself.
So I never learned that ritual early on. I never had that space to just sit with my thoughts. And even when I finally fought for it, it still felt like a luxury. To simply sit. To hear the noise in my mind and not apologize for it.
But with time, you learn. You learn to guide your thoughts. You learn to carry the chaos without letting it carry you. And eventually, you learn to bring all of it to Allah with a quieter heart.
Having those minutes isn’t small. It isn’t trivial. It’s a blessing I’m only now learning how to hold.
Keep Creating
Thank you for sharing this. Your comment has been lingering with me for a while, and I didn't know what was more important to respond with, nor do I want it to be "thank you".
You're right that it's not small or trivial. Those minutes are where you remain yourself. Where you don't perform, don't execute, don't play the role. And the fact that you had to fight for that space, that you're learning to hold it now, that's not late. That's exactly when it needed to happen for you, for me, for anyone. I truly believe in that..
What you described, being told that claiming thirty minutes for yourself meant you were selfish, that's not just about missing a morning routine. That's about being taught that your internal life doesn't deserve space. That's the noise in your head, the conversations you need to have with yourself, the screaming meemies, the shuffling through everything competing for attention, all of that should happen while you're being someone for someone else. I can relate to that. I know exactly where this is coming from, even if the story is different.
I'm glad you found it. And I'm glad it brought you to where those minutes become a conversation with Allah. That's the centre of it all anyway.
Keep Creating 😉